The thing that I hate the most (and I can only be honest here, I know some will berate me for saying this) As I was walking up Darwen Road to my car, I heard the muted cheer that met Gerrards goal...guessed it was us...Guessed it was about ten mins left As I got in my car, 5 Live went to Ewood for the pen, and every fibre in my body wanted Gerrard to miss I didnt want a heroic comeback, I didnt want a near miss.... I wanted us to lose badly, to hasten Hodgson sacking, and to show the rest fo the country what a c*** we have in charge i hate myself for that, but most of all I hate Hodgson for making me feel like that