Problem at Work

Stanley Leisure · October 23, 2006

Me.

I've been working at a new place, like i do every 3-6 months (freelancer) and i was very excited about starting here. Its a good company, a good show (i work in telly), the money's superb and the CV kudos is excellent.

I'm an assistant producer now and i expected a bit more responsibility. However - i think i've bitten off more than i can chew. Normally i get jobs on productions because i can do a bit of writing, a bit of research when needed, i'm generally quite industrious, i can generate ideas and i get on with people - with this job, 80% of what i do is admin for the show - things like checking the writers all have their stuff, updating running orders, checking questions etc - this job is more about saving a particular document in the right place than anything else and i've never worked like that before.

Not only this - i am bad at it - i don't have a particularly lateral brain - i'm no organiser and today i made a massive c*ck up which i rightly got b*llocked for. Problem with that is that another c*ck up happened earlier on in the day that wasn't my fault, but because there is a new producer above me too - she very conveniently palmed it off on to me. Which is f*cking marvellous because her boss is one of those blokes who never quite lets on exactly what he thinks of you - one minute he's sweetness and light and the next he's very dismissive.

Basically - the TV industry is very much based on word of mouth and the people i work for hold a lot of sway in the industry - i'm frustrated with myself that after 18 months of being courted by this company, i'm seemingly not up to the job - or at least part if it.

Its definitely one of those situations where you can choose to sink or swim, step up to the plate, hold your nerve etc but i'm having doubts whether i should be doing this job at all. I'm annoyed with the fact that i've been given a role that i'm not that particularly good at but i'm more annoyed at myself for just being sh*t.

This isn't particularly a solutions post - more a spleen venting exercise.

many thanks - i'm off to go and ponder my future.

Edited October 23, 2006 by Stanley Leisure

fyds · October 23, 2006

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